dasblut311's Diaryland Diary ----------------------------------------------------------------------------------------- ::yawn:: Wow. . .it's about 15 minutes before I need to go to school. . .I really shouldn't be on the computer at this time. <.< >,>. . .::looks around:: Ok no evil parent lurking around somewhere. Good. Anyways yea I had the strangest dream last night. It was that my mother married my English teacher Mr. E. So weird. It was really scary though, and quite disturbing. Perhaps I should write more in the morning because I'm not so angry and bitter towards the world in the morning (that's probably because the only living things I see in the morning are my cat appropriately named Shinigami and my mother). Well when I was taking a shower in the morning a poem came to me for . . .well this person who shall not be named cause he's simply evil and for some reason no matter what the fuck he does I can't hate him or be bitter towards him. I don't know I get little tangents though where I get mad at him but that's all really. It's so sad because normally people really need to prove their trust to me but like after a few weeks of meeting him I felt like I could trust him even though his sister I still can't trust and I've known her like twice as long that i've known him and I've known him now for about 3 years. But back to what I was saying, it's just so strange after the first few weeks of meeting him I was very open with him and very open with my feelings whether it was depression, sympathy, anger anything I could be open with him. . .though the only thing that I couldn't tell him was how I felt towards him. It would be sooooo much easier if he wasn't in a total different 'crowd' than me. not that I go by labels or anything, a matter of fact I truly hate them I think that they are the stupidest things in the whole entire world. however he says that he doesn't like them but when he's with his friends he acts differently towards me, like we never hung out or never shared those thoughts. but he pays attention to my sister and is like ohhhhhhh 'Rin. So icky. Not that my sister is ugly it's just that it's my well sister. I don't want to know when someone likes her especially if I have feelings towards that person. eh it's just messed up. I really should try to find someone else but the only guys who like me are older a lot older. And i'm sorry I don't go for that. . .unless it was some pretty j-rocker ::lol::. AKA Gackt-sama, Kaoru, the list goes on forever. . . Well anyways I should get going otherwise I'm going to be late late late for school. 7:23 a.m. - 2003-01-29 ----------------------------------------------------------------------------------------- |
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